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Sunday, January 31, 2010

The above photo was taken around two years back, on 29 February 2009.

I had to use this photo because I forgot to take pictures when i met up with her yesterday. It was just a short and simple catching up session for us, with lunch at Ajisen and tea break at Starbucks. Updated each other on many many things since we haven't seen each other for quite some time. Of course, bitching is something that we can never leave out :)

Finally, something that I was looking forward to - dinner as a family :)

Due to the amount of work I have on hand, I didn't get to spend much time with my family lately and I felt rather guilty about it because during this period of time, my home has turned into a hotel for me. I spend more time outside than at home. Even if I'm at home, I just shut myself from the outside world and get stuck in my room rushing projects.

It's another week before things will get better.

Endure jelly.

Life's hectic.

Friday, January 29, 2010

I'm worn out from everything. With all the projects and stuff. Amount of sleep is minimal every single day. Pimples are all popping out, panda eyes are forming. The last semester of my very last year is really a killer. I swear that I've never been this tired because of school work before.

Finally went for a run just now, but I feel like shit now. Because there's work in an hour plus time, and I feel so sleeping. Adding on, it's raining now and I find it so troublesome to travel to work. I want to stay at home and cuddle up in my comfy bed :)

(Yay! I've got no work today because my cousin is taking over for me. Thank you ah!:) )

It's week 15 already. Next week will be the final torture before I sort of get back my freedom.

Saturday and Sunday are "Chiong projects day". I die die also must start to revise for JED common test, do my ICTPM report and Web 2.0 project later.

Week 16

Tuesday - Web 2.0 and Open Source project submissions

Wednesday- ICTPM open book test, MAD project submission, JED common test

Thursday - OSWSD quiz, ICTPM report submission, DAM practical test

Friday - 3 Hours of boring CS lesson

Week 17 (No idea whether there are still ongoing lessons)

Friday - MAD Common Test and I'm free! :)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

One project down.

Three more projects, one report and another presentation to go.

Skipped lessons today and got stuck in the library doing projects instead.

Left school at around seven-thirty and had dinner with Gary at Ang Mo Kio.

Today I very sad because:

I missed my six pm korean show and it's the last episode ):

Super Junior was over in Genting recently and didn't come to Singapore): Blame it on Singapore's small market.

For now, it's time for OSWSD and I've to settle my presentation slides for coming Thursday. Life seriously sucks like hell.

Monday, January 25, 2010

To be frank, at certain point of time, I really envy those people who have others to do their projects for them, especially when my projects are screwing me upside down. Like that, they can enjoy as much as they want when people like me are still slaving their way off.

But if were given a chance to choose, I would rather do it myself and enjoy that sense of satisfaction all by myself when I complete my projects. If it's your own project, just do it yourself. Don't get some people to do it for you, and then claim it as your work. No matter how hard that project is going to be, as long as you put in your one hundred and one percent into it, I believe that teacher will be able to notice it. Even if teacher don't notice it at all, at least you've that answer in your heart. Don't even know how to do or start? Just ask around for friends' help. Friends don't know? Ask for teachers' help. I believe that they will be more than willing to help you. After all, I'm talking about the sense of responsibility here. You don't even do your own work, how do you step into the working society in the future, which is in a few weeks/months time? No matter how much advice people give, it's still your own road for you to choose. Does it all make sense? Try to think about it.

For my readers' information, I'm not shooting at anyone here. It's just a thought I've in my mind while I'm doing my projects, so decided to blog it down.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

mylaptopissolaglikeshit.

Planned to have an hour of nap and wake up at four am to continue with my projects, but it failed because I lost to the Z-monsters. Set so many alarms with it's volume set to it's maximum, requested for messages to be sent, but I can't even hear a single one of it. When i woke up, I like one kanchiong spider, immediately switch on my laptop and continue with my work. I don't even dare to step out of my room to go eat my brunch. Now I feel like some "zai nu"/geek.

Boohoo.

Back to projects )))))):

Java Enterprise Development

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Screw JED. It's totally killing us all. To be handed in on coming Monday but it's not even half done. I'm going to cry soon. The amount of codings can make me go super duper crazy. It takes don't know how long to do one part and for a person like me, I think will take even longer. omg lah. Just see me die this coming monday. It's going to be another sleepless night already.

If it's the first time, I can choose to forgive and forget.

Second time, I'll still choose to forgive and forget.

By as time goes by, the amount is already accumulating and it's until a point where I can't take it anymore, like a rubber being stretch to it's maximum. Three years... Three years is enough. For now, I'll still regard you as my friend, but I'll definitely not forgive or forget what you've done to me. People learn how to stop and every individual has it's own limits, but I don't see yours at all. You can go on forever and forever like nobody's business. Don't you give a damn about how i feel? If you were in my shoes, i bet you'll feel the same way too. Whatever it is, i can't wait for this stage of my life to be over, so that I won't be able to see you as much anymore.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Now, I know I'm worth nothing in their eyes.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Just want to share a simple quote I received in my email today :)

"Happiness cannot come from without. It must come from within.
It is not what we see and touch or that which others do for us
which makes us happy; it is that which we think and feel and
do, first for the other fellow and then for ourselves."

-- Helen Keller

Jelly's going crazy soon!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Currently at work now.
Intended to do my projects here, but in the end wasn't able to because there is some MP's visit today, which means i must be on high alert :/ Super sian. I think I'm going to gulp down alot of caffiene throughout the night and get part of the project completed. I don't want to die next week. Hopefully, some miracles will happen and my programs will work smoothly. Ya, part of my wishful thinking only because I can already forsee myself seeing countless amount of errors and spend more time debugging the errors instead of sleeping, eating, etc. Okay, I ought to be happy because I guess I'll get to lose off some of those fat fat during this period of time :)

First lesson is at eight tomorrow and I'm sure going to reach there early. Oh ya, did I mentioned that I received a warning letter on Saturday, saying that i missed five lectures? It's totally ridiculous can! I only remembered myself not going for two and as for the rest, he asked us to sign our attendance if we didn't tap our card. In the end, I didn't knew what he do and this warning letter came to me. What's worse is that I'm not the only one, most of my friends received it too! Like that what's the use of signing the attendance list? One of my friends went to clarify, and he said that this is a system error and there's nothing we can do about it, and all we can do is to go there earlier next time. WHERE GOT LIKE THAT ONE?! It's obviously an excuse can. Whatever is it, we're going on strike tomorrow! This is shit mann.

Projects Overloaded!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Because i've got too much projects to clear up, I decided to skip the three hours of JED and now i'm stuck at AMK hub's Ministry of Food all alone enjoying a cup of green tea, while i'm doing my projects. Don't you think i'm very hardworking? I think i am leh. Haha!

After which, I'll meet Gary and Hikari for our movie session. Like finally can! We discussed it like three weeks back, yet we took so long and dragged it till today to meet up for just one movie session because we're all super duper busy people!

Heard about some things, and I don't know what's up with some people. They are super duper hardcore and hardworking, but when it comes to certain stuff, they are really really brainless. I'm not trying to be bad, but it's all true. What for bother someone who is already busy? Though they want it badly, there are still so many other ways to solve this problem! I don't know what's wrong with their mind. Especially when they are the BEST students on earth.

And to add on, the moment i reached class today's morning, people must come ask me about projects already. Whether i know how to do anot, whether i complete already anot, and blah blah blah. It's damn irritating you know. When you're still damn sleepy and still in the "Power Off" mode, you like to be bombarded with questions about projects meh? For me, I really hate it alot (especially when the person's tone/voice is really naggy). If you were in my shoes, i bet you confirm feel the same way as me also.

Enough of nonsense, and I shall go back to projects.
See you people! :)

Singapore Canoe Marathon 2010

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Time really flies. It has been near one and half year of partnership and today marks the first and the last marathon with Rainie Teh Li Jun. Thanks partner, for being so willing to paddle with me for this marathon even though when i only came for that few trainings and thank you for making my last race such a good and satisfying one :)

From the start till now, we've gone through so many ups and downs, the happy times and the bad times. So many bad races that we've faced, but still ended up being good partners. It was you who plays a important role by helping me bring up my confidence and aggressiveness on a K2 and I must really thank you for that. Also, until now, I didn't knew how i managed to follow that really crazy stroke rate of yours.

As usual, so many things that i want to say but i'm rushing my projects, so i've got no time. In short, I'm really thankful for having you as my partner all these while. you were the best partner that i can even ask for :)

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

i'm sorry that i've to rant the same kind of stuff over and over again.

frankly speaking, i already think it's a total waste of my time to come to school already because all the labs/tutorials are almosts done and for now, it's like the projects period. now, i'm in lab and teacher wants us to do our project here. somehow it's good because my teacher will be there to assist us but for no reasons, i can't start doing my project during lessons and i'll end up msn-ng and facebook-ing. if i knew that this was going to happen, i would have just stayed at home and continue sleeping till noon, then wake up to face those projects. i come to school, i always sleep only. so in conclusion, i'm definitely not coming for classes next wednesday unless i really need help.

Friday, January 8, 2010

i can be very noisy during classes, but i die die also cannot do presentation! since forever, i've this stupid presentation phobia stuck onto me and i can't seem to get over it. whenever i got so many eyes staring at me, i'll start to get all nervous and DIE LAH, i'm going to screw it up again. this is total shit. @#$%&%$#^&!!!

now i more pek chek because fishville is hanging on me! i can't clean my tank, feed or sell my fish. and later, i'll see so many dead fishes on my computer screen again. arghs.

okay, now i shall put everything aside and thank that guy from acer. when i went to collect xiaojieli today, i thought the uncle there gave me the wrong laptop because the cover was damn clean, without any scratches and my stickers were gone! the whole thing looks damn new. i can't even find the LCD crack. so the uncle helped me to double check and he said that the guy who served me had helped me fix the LCD crack and replace my whole cover free of charge! i was damn surprised. i couldn't bear to fix it when i went there the previous time because that cost me like hundred over dollars?! now xiaojieli is back in one piece, i'm very very happy and i'm really thankful to that guy! :)

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

pardon me for my late late post people :)
have been too lazy or busy to blog ever since i came back from my holiday trip, adding on the fact that school has already reopen. boohoo.

2010 is here!! (yeah i know, damn late)
same old resolutions and with a few new ones. it doesn't feels like a new year to me though. perhaps it's because i'm still stuck with my projects and stuff. it made everything feels the same.
still, i hope the rest of my year will still be a pleasant one. The amount of nonsense that i had faced in 2009 is more that enough. don't want to elaborate anymore.

china trip during last december wasn't that bad.
food were pretty much the same for the eight whole days. everyday was like mixed vegetable rice. it was edible, except that some dishes were very salty or oily. thank god i brought my own tibits and cup noodles there. the worst was vomiting and losing my apppetite for the last three days. i still remember the day i vomited was terrible. the moment i reached the hotel room, i just landed on the bed. whatever i do, i felt that i was lifeless. i didn't even have the strength to squeeze out my facial cream. and minus eleven degrees was really crazy! no matter how many layers of clothes i wear, i'm still freezing like hell! and i didn't expect that i've to climb up 2.5km of stairs and come down again. people pay to go holiday and enjoy, we pay to exercise and suffer the cold weather. but i really salute my grandmother because she is already 73 and she managed to complete climbing the mountain while useless people like me was complaining like shit. HAHA.

i can't wait for chinese new year to come. cos it marks the completion of three years, end of projects and tests, start of holidays and money will start rolling in already :)
have been tied down with many projects recently, which is driving many of us nuts. another month before all the deadlines come. i really can't wait for it to be over so that i can start hunting for a part-time job, apply for university(which i really hope i can get in), meet up with my girlfriends, spend more time with my family and many many more! :)

i feel that i'm really growing older already. my facial complexion and stuff. i don't know why, but i'm acting more like my mother recently. that's what my sister said. damn saddening. this year i will hit the big two and next year will be my twenty first. boohoo.

and people, learn to treasure and learn the importance of the people around you, especially your family and friends. don't get angry and argue over the slightest reason, and learn how to forgive and forget. the future is unforeseeable. you'll never know what will happen next and by the time, it'll be then too late for you to regret.

okay, i guess i've to end to post abruptly because i still got my stupid com skills presentation tomorrow! bye!

Friday, January 1, 2010

i promise i will blog soon! =)