My Thoughts, My World.

Friday, October 30, 2009

have been quite busy recently and didn't really have the time to blog.

didn't went for any trainings this week since monday was mommy's birthday and wednesday was that retarded NE seminar which was a total waste of my time. instead, self-trained with sherlyna on thursday and we saw nathan, so we ended up running and gyming together.

mommy's birthday celebration was quite a simple one. just a simple meal and we surprised her with a mini cake before midnight came. she's currently taking up a temporary part-time job now cos i think she's just very bored at home. asked her not to work, she still want to work. cos if she work, we won't have homecooked food for the whole of two months! how terrible is that! now, the three of us know the importance of our mother. nevermind then, as long she is happy.

school was still all right. i felt that this specialisation isn't that bad after all. no exams leh! just got alot of projects to complete. certain modules are quite interesting. compared to last time, i've feel that i've a better understanding of programming now. but i really really can't take that DAM module. it's really damn boring and i don't even understand what the teacher is saying! so i ended up facebooking for most of the time during her lesson.

caught Michael Jackson This Is It movie with my sister just now. it's all about the rehersal/preparations for his concert before his death. with all the music and stuff, i think it's not bad.

quite sick of some stuff recently. the more i talk about it and think about, i feel tired. cos it's a total waste of my time. but it's like the moment i want to stop talking and thinking about it, then got new topics for me to talk again. i can publish a storybook already. total waste of my energy and time. but what to do?

okay, enough of these rubbish
next to come, i'm looking forward to:
-the meetup with aisyah next friday.
-ah yang's recovery from cough. so that i can go eat nice food with her and ben.
-hotpot culture with the girls on my birthday. (yes i know, still damn long! but this time no common test! so it's double happiness!)
-the china trip with my family the night when my common test ends. so i can buy alot alot of pocky from there.
-more, more and even more outings with all of my friends!

that's all i've to say for now. will blog soon IF I'VE GOT THE TIME!
bye bye!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Have you ever have a same gender friend, whom when you ask him/her out, they complain no money, yet they can keep go out with opposite gender ALOT of times. Yet in the past they dare to mention the phrase "zhong se qing you", and have they discovered what they are doing now?

Feel like knowing more things? Let me break it down for you.

Do you know how irritating/disgusted it is, when

- you thought you were close with somebody, but actually you're not?

- people thought you all are close friends, but when people see that you all don't interact with each other, people thought you're the bad guy, you are outcasting them, or you all got a fight or something? And the fact is, there isn't any fight or quarrel or wat at all.

- you tried to befriend with that someone again, hope things will be like how it used to be, but unfortunately it couldn't because that person is not willing to befriend you back again because maybe he/she thought you are distant from them, you are untrustable, and maybe very evil? When they don't even reflect on themselves?

- they seems to be like don't want to lose the friendship, but they are expecting the opposite party to take the initiative to 'repair' this friendship. Somehow, even an OUTSIDER is pitying us, trying to help us all to repair the friendship, yet the best part is, they are not doing anything? Like you owe them or something?

- although the you did initiate, but they are still giving cold shoulder?

- you thought this person is like that, but in the end it wasn't. It's bad to you, but it may be good for the others?

把热脸贴他的冷屁股。<- Have been feeling liddat for this week. This kinda feeling just sucks. It makes you look/feel like an asshole.

It's not only me, a few of us are feeling this way. We're sick and tired. Tried to improve the situation but to no avail. whatever isit, we're just not going to bother anymore.

okay, i guess It's time to stop all these rubbish already.
training tomorrow, i got to sleep(:

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

hurray! school starts at 12 tomorrow!

in the end, i didn't appeal or anything. i guess it's time i learn to be independent at times instead of relying on others yeah? i should try to take things positively. at least i will still get to see the rest of my friends once a day! like that, i will treasure them even more(: and since we're in the same specialisation, we can always help each other with studies and projects! i'm not worried anymore, i shan't complain anymore. i promise!

thank god that my cousin help took over my work today. buay tahan. i'm so tired that if somebody give me any empty place, i can just sleep anytime, anywhere. this few days, the moment i lie down on bed, i can just immediately sleep. now, it's not that i don't want to sleep. i'm forcing myself to stay awake till the food in cafe world is ready in a few minutes time!

Monday, October 19, 2009

don't ask me about school today.

it totally sucks. i might be appealing soon.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

after tomorrow, school reopens.

so sickening. two months holiday seemed like a few weeks.

and when school reopens, i've lesser time to go out since i've to cope with trainings, studies and work.

really really tired, that i can go on sleeping forever. slept a total of thirteen hours before i woke up for training today, with only an half hour break used to play cafe world. and when i reached home after training today, i had another three hours plus of nap and then woke up for steamboat. life like that is damn shiok. to me, sleeping is everything. when school reopens, i think i will die. it's either i oversleep or sleep alot during lessons.

and my calf is still damn pain!):

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

"Everyone experiences tough times; it is a measure of your determination and dedication how you deal with them and how you can come through them."

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

all the time, it was active and it was damn fat . but one afternoon, we came to realise that it wasn't its usual self. it wasn't moving. it was lying there, with a really fast heartbeat and it wasn't able to open it's own eyes. it became damn small size, damn skinny. search the internet and thought the cause was dehydration so fed it with lots and lots of water. that night, we really thought that it was able to survive. the next morning, my mommy still see it moving and gave it water but the next moment, it was no longer breathing. regretted that i can't hear my alarm and wake up in the middle of the night to feed it. couldn't bear to throw it down the chute, thus buried it beside a tree near my house. it's no longer here and i kind of miss it. goodbye, my dearest hamster. ):

Saturday, October 10, 2009

arghs. house's internet is so screwed. i don't know why my stuff aren't loading. i can't facebook, one piece and read my mails but i can blog-.- omg, this sucks.

headed over to town with cousin yesterday for movie and sushi. caught Fame and i would say i still prefer High School Musical. ya, and please remember that you owe me one for making me walk to and fro!

going out with family later. no idea where is daddy going to bring us to eat but i know that it's confirm good food!(:

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

"AHCHOOOOOOO! AHCHOOOOO!...." and this goes on forever and ever. have been sneezing non-stop since sunday and i can't sleep properly last night because my nose was like a running tap. and i used the tissue like no need money like that. whole body is aching and my the pain in my head is killing me. my body is really weak this year. for the past few years, i only fall sick like once a year but now what? it's the FOURTH time already. damn.

and why i always so suay one, get those things i don't like ):

Friday, October 2, 2009

my spoilt lappy was the reason why i didn't get to blog regularly.

thursday was mel's birthday and we girls met up. it was my first clubbing experience. surprisingly, i'm able to take in the loud music. i guess it wasn't that bad after all(:

slept really little and met gary on friday afternoon. i felt like a walking zombie. i felt even worse during work. i can't even do things properly. and the moment i reached home, i want to sleep but then i started to feel energetic again. and i think the amount of sleep loss has caused me to start falling sick already. sigh.

i can't wait for the school timetable to come out!