My Thoughts, My World.

CONFDENCE PLEASE!

Saturday, May 31, 2008

counting down. left with one last week to NWCC.
believe in yourself jelly. have confidence.
STOP OVERPULLING! TWIST! ENDURE!

shucks. get that pain off my wrist.

XIAOJIELI RECOVERED(:

Friday, May 30, 2008

instead of transporting boat, servicing my lappie took up more than half of my day.
crapp. but xiaojieli is fine(:

training at macritchie tmr! GOOOOOOO~!!

all ritey. TIME IS PRECIOUS!
got to go study!
BYE!

oh ya! before i forgot, thanks for the cap!(:

THIS IS WHAT I CALL CRAZY.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

NIGHTMARES!!
i feel like dying. i'm dead tired yet i still have to force my eyes to be open and get all the notes into my head. what choice do i've? i'm left with limited time to study and i really want to score well.

week 8 is super duper terrible. i've to juggle time between tests, presentation and trainings.
monday - IS lab test, land training
tuesday - AIM lab test, NT lab test
wednesday - DDI quiz, sea training
thursday - INTENT presentation
friday - break
saturday - NWCC
sunday - NWCC

gosh. i realised that NWCC is nearing. just left with last 3 trainings. i'm really scared. but no matter what, i still have to try my best and turn my fear into confidence! i must do it!

DONUT FACTORY! YUM YUM!(:

DAMN SUAY.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

oh my mother. xiaojieli blacked out)): totally crap. photos, songs, pictures and lots of important stuff are stored inside. seriously, i really need it for studies. bringing it to see a doctor soon. all i can do now is to pray for my stuff not to disappear. please don't!!

week 7 is already terrible enough. week 8 is worser. gosh.

got to go study now!
BYE!

Friday, May 23, 2008

UPCOMING TESTS

MONDAY- Infocomm Security(IS)

THURSDAY- Rapid Application Development(RAD)

it's possible to study properly for RAD but how in the world am i going to study for IS? when the teacher comes off and on for lessons every week and we don't even know what he is talking about. i really have no idea what is going to come out for the test. crap! shit la. sure will die. confirm, chopped stamp!)):

oh my tian. training tmr and i'm not in bed yet.

nights!

HYPERACTIVE-NESS!

the day passed quickly. quite a good day for me. spend the entire day crapping and slacking around. classmates even tried to guess how i'm going to turn out at the end of the day. very high or very low? tata~ i was super duper high la! i can just spout nonsense and burst out in laughter anytime. my energy was like never-ending((: even up till now i'm still damn hyper. i guess this is the only time i'm not complaining that i'm tired! HAHA!

the weather is damn hot. air con is turned on yet i'm still sweating. RUBBISH!

yep! it's friday again. training with hueyyen((: yes yes yes!!

time checked: 12:03AM
all right! i guess i'm going to crap for another hour or so then i'll be off to bed!
sayonara!!

I HATE LIZARDS!

Thursday, May 22, 2008

oh well. school was mentally and physically tiring today. i kept falling asleep during lessons. don't ask me why. i got absolutely no idea. but the really good thing is that training in the afternoon made me felt energetic. damn weird. i guess it's cos we're improving? 6 more official trainings to NWCC. we're going to make it through!(:

what the hell.
i'm living in terror.
lizards are damn irritating already and it's the bee's turn to make fun of me this time))):
run for your lives!

BYE!!

DAMN HEAVY LA.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

thank goodness. finally, i've cleared 2 tests!(:

i've to bring xiaojieli, database textbook and my paddle to school tomorrow. my tian. i guess even before i start training, i'll already be tired out by carrying all this stuff. can any kind souls offer to help jelly? please(:

yes!
rowing tomorrow!
rowing tomorrow!
ROWING TOMORROW

chin won't be in school for the next 2 days)):

NOT AGAIN..

Monday, May 19, 2008

before that was a small lizard, now it's a big fat lizard! lizards love camping in my bathroom and i totally hate it))):
came back home not long ago and wanted to bath. but now i've to wait for my parents to be back to clear that stupid lizard. rarrr! idiot.
I HATE LIZARDS!!!

FAITH.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

i'm strong. i know i am.
FAITH is going to be my magic word from today onwards.

i'm so hungry!! but i better stop eating so much. even coach is haunting me in my dreams that i should start losing weight)))): so scary!! *jelly runs away*

bye bye!!

Friday, May 16, 2008

damn shocking and saddening. its just one earthquake. and it has taken many innocent lives away, separating lots of them from their loved ones.
it has actually made me realised how lucky i'm to have..
my parents enduring all my nonsense and putting me back on the right path (i guess i shall not elaborate about this. private and confidential=]);
siblings who i can bully and have fun with all the time;
classmates who have brought me endless laughter during boring lessons;
friends that i can gossip, crap and share all my little secrets and problems with;
cliques that i can have all the fun without any worries;
a team to train hard and play hard with.
oh no. i didn't expect myself to type out such stuff. anyways, THANKS PEOPLE!(:

and sister, i'm damn sorry i kicked up such a big fuss just now. i'm sorry.

rowing tomorrow. hope everything goes smoothly!

bye bye!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

today's night class was an exception. it was different from other thursdays. instead of complaining non-stop like before, i had a sense of satisfication when class ended. not because i get to slack and do whatever i want during lessons. but i managed to complete all my lab work on time(: it's so rare. first time in history i guess. (OOPS!)

i'm really bored.
bored. more boreder. most boredest.
okay. that's absolutely crap!

bye bye!

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

when i say something, i really do mean it. do not treat it as a joke. i do not want to repeat what i've said over and over again. it's damn irritating.

Monday, May 12, 2008

there's simply nothing to blog about nowadays.
NAH... actually i'm just damn lazy. i wouldn't blog if jocelyn yang wanyi is not pestering me. quite rare huh? haha.

everything is going on FINE. i guess so?

PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT. i really hope so. perhaps it's just the starting and we might just need more time. more time to overcome some difficulties, more time to get use to it and more time to become better. whatever isit, let's not give up okay partner? we'll sure make it through one day. love ya!(:
JOCELYN YANG! you also la. i'm sure you're going to do it! have confidence in yourself! jia you!(:

i seriously hate school. it's super duper demoralising. especially thursday night classes. when all my friends are busy with their work, i'm always sitting there, staring at the computer screen as if the answers will appear automatically. and when teachers come asking me questions, i will go "HUH?". i just can't find the reason for why am i going to school. how great will it be if i've a bed nicely prepared for me during every lessons?... it's just a wishful thinking of mine. too bad for me then.

oh well. DDI test is on coming wednesday. 60 questions!! how am i going to remember everything with this goldfish memory of mine? my tian.
burning midnight oil again.. and my bed is so damn tempting.. irritating )):
BYE PEOPLE!

Friday, May 9, 2008

a simple day for me.
woke up only at 3pm.
had one meal for today and that's steamboat at home.
then went for a swim.
and now, i'm back home doing nothing but watching tv and blogging.

rowing and then mother's day celebration tomorrow.
i'm so going to enjoy my day(:

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

i really need to destress. ever since school started, nothing had been going on smoothly for me. i'm looking forward to every training cos that's the only period of time i'll feel a little happier. cos i can just throw everything aside and row as much as i could.
training might be short today, but it's more than enough. few minutes down into the waters rowing make me feel alot of better.

i might look happy on the outside but who in the world knows how i'm feeling inside? i've got a blog.. but i can't say everything out here. i need someone to talk to yet i can't find a suitable person. not even the one closest to me. sometimes, i rather keep things to myself instead of troubling my friends. and yep, it feels damn uncomfortable. but i really don't want to affect any of my friends.

i really hope things get better day by day. i really hope.

awww. night class tomorrow.
dead.

Monday, May 5, 2008

everything is going so fast. that everytime i open my eyes in the morning, i would forget what day is it. lessons are going so fast that i can't catch up at all. i don't even know what i'm studying when it's already week 4. tests are beginning to come and i'm really damn stressed up. what to do? no choice but to study hard. everyone is in the same situation as me. everything is really crap. my hope of getting a good gpa might be gone like that. super sian)))):

and my english is getting from bad to worse. i can't even speak proper english la.
favourite food becomes flavoured fruit.
popcorn becomes porkcorn.
french fries becomes fren fry.
nowadays becomes NOWSADAY.
crap.

school again tomorrow and i hate it totally.
bye!

Sunday, May 4, 2008

i did so many things but it doesn't seem to make any difference.
should i just give up or not?

the above is not an kayaking issue. sorry for the inconvenience caused.
HAHA!

Saturday, May 3, 2008

mentally and physically worn out. more of physical though.

K2 with mel today. we're improving. minusing away the leaning part and stuff, we'll be all right.
it's quite funny to think back about how we were performing on the K2 months ago. we were always shaking madly and would capsize without even leaving the pontoon. i remember capsizing 20 over times at the pontoon just for very one sea training.
we've come so far. so let's jia you partner!
"we will try harder and COMMUNICATE more . yea partner?"- mel's blog
YES PARTNER!!(:

the day doesn't stop with just training. went to swim in the afternoon instead of taking a nap. it's been how many donkey years since i last swam. i was as slow as a tortoise and was panting madly like a dog. i'm damn dumb, always doing things at the inappropriate timing. making myself more tired when there is training tomorrow.

guess i shall rest early today for training tmr! bye!

Friday, May 2, 2008

nothing interesting about my life. damn boring.
WARNING! PLEASE SKIP READING THIS POST COS IT'S REALLY NOTHING!
please believe me! or you might just regret.

went to causeway to collect my handphone yesterday. i can finally throw that old, lousy and fat handphone aside. yayness!

no school today. woke up late. met up with melissa in the afternoon and went all the way down to tanah merah to collect our sandals. then went home.

see... from the start, i've already warned you not to read my post right? tsk! it's already too late for you to regret. too bad!!
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so why are you still here? shoo shoo!

HAHAHA! sorry, i was getting a little crazy in here.
BYE BYE!!