My Thoughts, My World.

Mid-July!

Sunday, July 15, 2012

It's mid-july already! Time flies huh...

Anyways, so as you people know that I've resigned from my previous job as Service Desk Specialist (the title sounds nice, but in actual fact feels like SKW) and I'm currently on my new job for a month already! I'm thankful for this job opportunity. Everything feels so much better. At least I've got work to do almost every single minute, so time will goes by even faster :)

Everything has been good for the past fifteen days of July! Forever meeting up with friends! :) Time for some pictures! Teehee. It has been long since I've been posting up pictures! Please do bear with me cos I've got really too much of self-shots recently. HAHA. This post will only consists of random photos, meet-up photos will be in individual posts :)

So... I guess that's all for now! More upcoming photos, so do stay tuned to my blog for updates! :D It's Monday again tomorrow. Have an early rest and be prepared to fight of the Monday's Blues! Goodnight! :D

Where boys become men.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Dearest brother is enlisting today. I'm damn free, but i refused to send him off together with my family. I know that I can't say goodbyes. It's the hardest thing for me to face. I would rather shed tears at home than to go there and be all emotional.

I probably shouldn't cry cos it's only two weeks (But I really couldn't help it. Sigh). One week away in Bangkok with the bitches to keep myself occupied, and gonna make plans everyday for another week. I'm also gonna make it a point to spend some time with my family too, right before I commence on my new job in mid-june. Oh, some of you might be curious why out of the blue I'm starting on a new job. I will share it in the next blog post. With tons of pictures too!

Anyways, I'm really proud of him serving the nation! I know it's just National Service and it's nothing big at all, but it's my brother that is going in leh! Those who have heard me talked about my brother should know. Anyways, I hope my brother do grow bigger size the next time I see him! He's too skinny for his height already. Yes, all the fats came to me, TO ME. Both my sister and brother eat a lot and don't exercise, but they don't grow fat at all. I eat the same amount as them and exercise often but I don't lose weight and I'm FAT. Someone please tell me why.

GEORGE LIEW JUN FEI, I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO WEEKS TIME! :D By then, I'll bring you go eat your favourite Japanese Curry Rice! XOXO ♥

Emotional Rollercoaster.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

This is going to be a really emotional post.

I don't know why my emotions/feelings/thoughts keep changing from one to another now. It's scary and I'm really irritated by it. One moment I will be happy, the next I will be angsty then I'll feel really miserable and then will have the want to cry feeling. I really don't know why I'm in this state now. I'm like a timebomb that will goes off anytime?

No. I'm not thinking of anything now. I just don't know why I'm like that now.
Probably I'm just too tired and my body needed some rest that's all. I'm trying to convince myself that's the case. Maybe after I wake up later, everything will be back to normal. Yes, maybe...

Random.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

I'm randomly blog-hopping through my friends' blog and realised that the people around me are no longer into blogging already. I really don't know how in the earth did we managed to blog daily last time. It's like we have all the time in the world. This kind of made me wonder if any of my friends do read my blog nowadays (except that one friend that I know of)? Oh wells. I guess as we mature, we'll tend to be busy dealing with our own life and it's natural not to have time for all these.

My blog reflects my personality and emotions. When I'm frustrated, I blog. At least it won't argue with me. When I've got so much things stuck inside my heart, I blog. At least there's some place where I can pour out my feelings Happy, sad, angsty or whatever my emotions are, I blog. Blogging is for the sake of memories. At least when I want to backtrack my life, I can still go through my archives. That's the point of time where I will know how much I've grown, or whether did I actually changed for the better. At times, I do wish I'm not that lazy, and spend a little time everyday to log in an entry. I will try to put in more effort to blog from now one. I didn't promise. I said I'll try :)

Freedom! :)

Friday, May 25, 2012

Exams are finally over! :D My papers are kinda screwed up, but I promised to leave the exam hall a happy girl for my very last paper! The last paper was manageable anyways. It's was the first three papers that had me fucked upside down. But oh wells, I'm thankful it's over for now! Two months of holidays! No more rushing for lessons, staying up late for assignments till August comes! No exams till November! :D

First paper tomorrow!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

做人最重要就是开心！为何要管别人怎么想呢？如果你相信自己的选择是对的，那就去做你想要的。因为没有人比你更了解自己！:D

I can't believe I'm actually spending my time blogging when my first paper is tomorrow. I think I will need more motivation! But I don't know what can actually help me if i don't help myself :/ No matter how many times I tried to read through my notes, nothing seem to get into my head. Like that how? Go in and die tomorrow meh?! :(

Whatever it may be, I think the only and only way now is to actually keep mugging and stop ranting already :/

Got to go! Running out of time! :(

The Sad Truth.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Working in this line actually made me see what the real side of humans are like. I understand that there are always exception but I'm talking about the character of the majority of the people here.

People with higher education, higher IQ, higher salary have the tendency to misuse their authority, using their designation/title to press people to get things done. Yes, you have everything, but aren't you still human? Don't you think you should deserve the same treatment as the rest of them? What's the use of having that amount of IQ and salary, when your EQ is that low? Will that actually make you even happier? Will that actually make you have more true friends around?

Yes, I love money. Everyone do love money. Every single day, I wish that money would just drop down from the sky without me having to move around. But if I've a choice between money and family/friends, I would definitely go for the second choice. I can't live without my loving parents and crazy siblings, not forgetting that bunch of crazy friends. I do treasure every single one of them. At each phase of your life, you'll meet different people and most of them would just come and go, but true friends stay in your life no matter what happens. Forget about those who leave and don't give a single damn about you when you're at your worst. You should know you don't deserve such treatment from these people.

Strength.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Pretty much stressed up by everything that's going on around me lately. I'm probably too tired to go on with life for now. I know there are people out there who are facing a worse situation as compared to mine. But sigh, I'm really just tired. I can rant as and when I like it right? Whatever that happens out there, it's none of my business at all. Like what I always said, "Don't make your problem my problem".

I'm not that kind of selfish person also uh. I'll automatically offer help when needed. Yes, even when that very person has given me tons of shit, I'll still help cos I won't know if one day they will be the one helping me or if I'll ever need help from others. Wells.. I'll try my best to help every single one of my friends, within my own means. I always hope that I have that special ability to make my closest ones forget about their unhappy moments. Life could have been much better for them.

Last assignment to be completed, and then it will be exams soon. Four papers to face the next month. But I don't have the motivation to study nor complete my very last assignment at all. I'm getting more and more lazier and last minute as each day goes by. I know it's impossible as for now, but I just want that carefree life that I used to have when I'm back in poly and secondary school. All I have to do is to play my part by doing well in school, while my parents provide for me. Of course, I do work part time here and there so that I've got a little more to spend. Other than that, there aren't any money, relationship and other issues to be worried about.

I miss paddling, especially those people in the team. I miss those land trainings and time spent under the sun, in the waters, when all of us work hard together, aiming to be better and stronger when the next training session comes. I miss all those races. That very nervous feeling before each race arrives, and that awesome feeling when we perform well in the race. We do face failures too, but each and every time we aim to come back even stronger. Every race, every single moment with the team back then, it's all etched deeply in my heart. These are moments that I will never ever forget :)

All about the C word - Confidence.

Friday, February 10, 2012

‎"The truth is, I have a bad habit of comparing myself to others. There's always someone with a better smile, nicer clothes, a skinner waist, brighter eyes, and amazing hair. I put myself down all the time. I can never be happy with the way I look at all. I'm self-conscious and that's probably the number one thing I want to change about me."

I'm reading CLEO right now and I really envy those ladies who managed to overcome their flaws and be so confident about how they look. Seriously, how did they do it? Even with those guidelines provided in the magazine, I doubt I can even overcome that barrier.

For me, I admit that almost every single day, I'm having negative thoughts about my body, looks or my dressing. Whenever I see my own reflection, my very first reaction will be "Eew. Why you so fat? Why you look older than you're supposed to be? Why can’t I look like that girl over there? So pretty only luh!" It's like... I totally can't accept my flaws and I’ll always compare myself to others. I'll never be able to strutt out of my house, feeling very confident. Yeah I know, this is really really bad. And this is probably the first thing that I want to change about myself. I need to have that little bit of self-confidence in myself.

But how to attain self-confidence? Can somebody please tell me what to do?

I doubt anyone here will be able to help me with this, since it's an issue with myself. The most important thing now here is actually self-love. I will have to start things off by loving myself first, love everything that was given to me - looks and personality. Everything happens for a reason. It doesn't matter how others look at me, as long as I'm contented with what I am doing.

So yes, a first resolution set for myself for the year of 2012 - "I WANT TO BE MORE CONFIDENT!". Hmmm. Is this counted as a resolution? Anyhow, I don't care! LOL.

An abrupt ending to this post! Byeeeee! :D

Goldkist Beach Resort!

Friday, December 2, 2011

Okay, i'm back here again to blog! I'm just trying to get back the momentum of blogging frequently :) I hope that I'm not overdoing it though :)

So now I'm stuck in the chalet with my colleagues! Hahaha. How I wish I've got no work tomorrow! :( Have to travel back all the way to YCK to work for that four hours. So mood spoiler one leh. Sigh. I don't even know if I'm able to sleep in peace tonight! The bed is so dirty! Why didn't they provide us with bedsheets! :( Poor service leh. Boohoo :(

I'm kind of sleepy now actually. Hahaha. I'm going to be so cui over the next few days. I've a run on Sunday, and I'm going to have minimal sleep and worse still, so many BBQ food is going down my stomach tomorrow. Oh my gawd.

Heh! Back to reading my magazine! Jessica Liu so pretty only pleaseeeee!