"The truth is, I have a bad habit of comparing myself to others. There's always someone with a better smile, nicer clothes, a skinner waist, brighter eyes, and amazing hair. I put myself down all the time. I can never be happy with the way I look at all. I'm self-conscious and that's probably the number one thing I want to change about me."
I'm reading CLEO right now and I really envy those ladies who managed to overcome their flaws and be so confident about how they look. Seriously, how did they do it? Even with those guidelines provided in the magazine, I doubt I can even overcome that barrier.
For me, I admit that almost every single day, I'm having negative thoughts about my body, looks or my dressing. Whenever I see my own reflection, my very first reaction will be "Eew. Why you so fat? Why you look older than you're supposed to be? Why can’t I look like that girl over there? So pretty only luh!" It's like... I totally can't accept my flaws and I’ll always compare myself to others. I'll never be able to strutt out of my house, feeling very confident. Yeah I know, this is really really bad. And this is probably the first thing that I want to change about myself. I need to have that little bit of self-confidence in myself.
But how to attain self-confidence? Can somebody please tell me what to do?
I doubt anyone here will be able to help me with this, since it's an issue with myself. The most important thing now here is actually self-love. I will have to start things off by loving myself first, love everything that was given to me - looks and personality. Everything happens for a reason. It doesn't matter how others look at me, as long as I'm contented with what I am doing.
So yes, a first resolution set for myself for the year of 2012 - "I WANT TO BE MORE CONFIDENT!". Hmmm. Is this counted as a resolution? Anyhow, I don't care! LOL.
An abrupt ending to this post! Byeeeee! :D
All about the C word - Confidence.
Friday, February 10, 2012
Goldkist Beach Resort!
Friday, December 2, 2011
Okay, i'm back here again to blog! I'm just trying to get back the momentum of blogging frequently :) I hope that I'm not overdoing it though :)
So now I'm stuck in the chalet with my colleagues! Hahaha. How I wish I've got no work tomorrow! :( Have to travel back all the way to YCK to work for that four hours. So mood spoiler one leh. Sigh. I don't even know if I'm able to sleep in peace tonight! The bed is so dirty! Why didn't they provide us with bedsheets! :( Poor service leh. Boohoo :(
I'm kind of sleepy now actually. Hahaha. I'm going to be so cui over the next few days. I've a run on Sunday, and I'm going to have minimal sleep and worse still, so many BBQ food is going down my stomach tomorrow. Oh my gawd.
Heh! Back to reading my magazine! Jessica Liu so pretty only pleaseeeee!
So now I'm stuck in the chalet with my colleagues! Hahaha. How I wish I've got no work tomorrow! :( Have to travel back all the way to YCK to work for that four hours. So mood spoiler one leh. Sigh. I don't even know if I'm able to sleep in peace tonight! The bed is so dirty! Why didn't they provide us with bedsheets! :( Poor service leh. Boohoo :(
I'm kind of sleepy now actually. Hahaha. I'm going to be so cui over the next few days. I've a run on Sunday, and I'm going to have minimal sleep and worse still, so many BBQ food is going down my stomach tomorrow. Oh my gawd.
Heh! Back to reading my magazine! Jessica Liu so pretty only pleaseeeee!
Where is my bus?!
I'm thankful that I've this blogger app to accompany me! Ohhh. Just when I'm about to blog, my bus arrived! Took like donkey years to arrive. Sigh.
Bus service in Singapore is getting less efficient nowadays. Oh wait. Our bus service got efficient before meh? Slow like a tortoise. Bus fare keep increasing, yet the number of buses still remain the same. So what if it's peak period? At times, I've to wait for half hour until the bus arrives. And I know of people who waited longer! And after waiting for damn long, 2 or 3 buses will all arrive at once. This is ridiculous. If it's wet weather, I'll still give in. But when the sun is so bright and sunny, when I really need the aircon? My transport money always let them eat away, I damn 不爽. Argh. I think lodge complaint to them also no use. If complaining works, we'll be able to see the difference already. Wait until now meh? Getting worse only.
Anyways, i'm reaching work soon! So shall see you around! :D
Bus service in Singapore is getting less efficient nowadays. Oh wait. Our bus service got efficient before meh? Slow like a tortoise. Bus fare keep increasing, yet the number of buses still remain the same. So what if it's peak period? At times, I've to wait for half hour until the bus arrives. And I know of people who waited longer! And after waiting for damn long, 2 or 3 buses will all arrive at once. This is ridiculous. If it's wet weather, I'll still give in. But when the sun is so bright and sunny, when I really need the aircon? My transport money always let them eat away, I damn 不爽. Argh. I think lodge complaint to them also no use. If complaining works, we'll be able to see the difference already. Wait until now meh? Getting worse only.
Anyways, i'm reaching work soon! So shall see you around! :D
A brand new month! :)
Thursday, December 1, 2011
I'm so damn bored. My blog is like so dead. I doubt anyone drop by here anymore. Hahaha.
On a lighter note, it's a brand new month! Let's put our hands together and welcome December! :) Its going to be the happiest month ever in the entire 2011! :)
In exactly another nine more days, I'll be turning 21! Wo de tian ah. Time flies. Its like... Woah! I've lived for 21 years already leh! LOL. But oh wells... I'm not sure if growing another year older is a good or bad thing? Will I've better things coming my way? Haha. It's probably time for me to grow up a little. Cannot be so childish or naive or whatever anymore. Hahaha. (Pardon me. I don't really know what I'm blabbering about. Just don't care me lah okay.)
If I say that I'm not looking forward to receiving loads of presents this month, I'm obviously lying. I mean.. Who doesn't like to receive presents right? I love unwrapping presents, receiving surprises! :D Everybody loves that! Hahaha. What I'm actually looking forward to more is the meet ups for this month! XLB buffet with the girls, dinner with pancake bro, buffet town with family, birthday dinner with CKC, date with Gary Chin, Kbox with the bunch of crazy colleagues, out with Shi hua and the list goes on and on and on! I'm very long-winded I know! Hahaha. But cannot lah, I'm so damn exciteddddddd! Woohoo! I'm really smiling to myself while time this post! Crazy I know! :)
Okay, since I so long never blog already. I'll just write a longer post today lah okay. Wahaha.
Hmmm. What can I talk about? Suddenly mind blank, can't think of anything to say at all. :/
Erm. I bet many of you want to know more about me and my relationship issues. Since a few of you have been questioning me about it. To be frank, when it comes to such stuff, I'm not that open about it. I'm more of an introvert when it comes to such stuff? And I'm really bad at handling my emotions.
Okay. Let's get straight to the point then. Ever since my previous relationship that lasted for only three pathetic months, I totally lose my faith in guys. Seriously, what did I exactly see in him previously? I must be blind. He's so damn fat and ugly, and he's the worst guy ever. A bastard. Arghs. The thought of him disgusts me. No offence to any guy readers down here... But personally, my impression is that the majority of the guys out there are players. All they want to do is to try out different kinds of girls and then if the poor girl is not suitable, it'll then be strike off their list. To most of them, girls are an option, not a priority. Wells.. It's the nature of the guys I guess? But there are always exception... There might be girls who are like that too. And though its really rare, there will definitely be a Mr. Nice around :)
And guys are probably one of the reasons why girls would rather fall in love and be with girl. Cos girls do understand girls better. And I believe that most girls out there makes a better boyfriend than the guys around. Just a point of view ah :) sorry if I offended anyone here :) hmmm. I should probably stop here, otherwise I'll get criticised and some "nothing-better-to-do" bloghoppers would actually snapshot my post and post it up on stomp for their 50 dollars voucher or whatever they can win there. Zzz. Seriously damn bo liao.
Hahaha. So this post long enough anot? I'll probably get back to blogging again. I think? LOL. I every time say for fun only. The next time I will blog will probably be half a year later. Wells... No one reads it anyways! So why do I've to care. Heh! I will try my very best lah. Since its the school holidays! Hahaha. Bye bye! :)
On a lighter note, it's a brand new month! Let's put our hands together and welcome December! :) Its going to be the happiest month ever in the entire 2011! :)
In exactly another nine more days, I'll be turning 21! Wo de tian ah. Time flies. Its like... Woah! I've lived for 21 years already leh! LOL. But oh wells... I'm not sure if growing another year older is a good or bad thing? Will I've better things coming my way? Haha. It's probably time for me to grow up a little. Cannot be so childish or naive or whatever anymore. Hahaha. (Pardon me. I don't really know what I'm blabbering about. Just don't care me lah okay.)
If I say that I'm not looking forward to receiving loads of presents this month, I'm obviously lying. I mean.. Who doesn't like to receive presents right? I love unwrapping presents, receiving surprises! :D Everybody loves that! Hahaha. What I'm actually looking forward to more is the meet ups for this month! XLB buffet with the girls, dinner with pancake bro, buffet town with family, birthday dinner with CKC, date with Gary Chin, Kbox with the bunch of crazy colleagues, out with Shi hua and the list goes on and on and on! I'm very long-winded I know! Hahaha. But cannot lah, I'm so damn exciteddddddd! Woohoo! I'm really smiling to myself while time this post! Crazy I know! :)
Okay, since I so long never blog already. I'll just write a longer post today lah okay. Wahaha.
Hmmm. What can I talk about? Suddenly mind blank, can't think of anything to say at all. :/
Erm. I bet many of you want to know more about me and my relationship issues. Since a few of you have been questioning me about it. To be frank, when it comes to such stuff, I'm not that open about it. I'm more of an introvert when it comes to such stuff? And I'm really bad at handling my emotions.
Okay. Let's get straight to the point then. Ever since my previous relationship that lasted for only three pathetic months, I totally lose my faith in guys. Seriously, what did I exactly see in him previously? I must be blind. He's so damn fat and ugly, and he's the worst guy ever. A bastard. Arghs. The thought of him disgusts me. No offence to any guy readers down here... But personally, my impression is that the majority of the guys out there are players. All they want to do is to try out different kinds of girls and then if the poor girl is not suitable, it'll then be strike off their list. To most of them, girls are an option, not a priority. Wells.. It's the nature of the guys I guess? But there are always exception... There might be girls who are like that too. And though its really rare, there will definitely be a Mr. Nice around :)
And guys are probably one of the reasons why girls would rather fall in love and be with girl. Cos girls do understand girls better. And I believe that most girls out there makes a better boyfriend than the guys around. Just a point of view ah :) sorry if I offended anyone here :) hmmm. I should probably stop here, otherwise I'll get criticised and some "nothing-better-to-do" bloghoppers would actually snapshot my post and post it up on stomp for their 50 dollars voucher or whatever they can win there. Zzz. Seriously damn bo liao.
Hahaha. So this post long enough anot? I'll probably get back to blogging again. I think? LOL. I every time say for fun only. The next time I will blog will probably be half a year later. Wells... No one reads it anyways! So why do I've to care. Heh! I will try my very best lah. Since its the school holidays! Hahaha. Bye bye! :)
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Awwww :( I don't want to get out of my bed and head to school. I feel like "The Lazy Song" today... So lazy, so lazy. But looking on the positive side, I'm finally having Hotpot Culture today! So looking forward to dinner time! :)
Alrights, I better start preparing already! Otherwise, I'll be running late again. Late queen :/ LOL. Byeeeee! :D
Alrights, I better start preparing already! Otherwise, I'll be running late again. Late queen :/ LOL. Byeeeee! :D
Friday, September 2, 2011
"Cute is when your personality shines through your looks. Like, when you see someone's personality in the way they walk and you just feel like hugging them every time you see them."
- Natalie Portman
Thursday, September 1, 2011
"You will never, ever get out of a warm bed and go for a run on a cold morning and feel bad. Trust me. - NIKE"
So damn true. Claimed my off-in-lieu today. Dragged my lazy ass out of my bed and went for a 5KM run earlier. I'm satisfied, happy to see the figure on the weighing machine decreasing, and instead of feeling all tired out, I feek more energetic than ever now! :) Think I'll be able to focus better when it comes to my assignment later! :)
My body hasn't been doing well recently too. Increase in amount of gastric attacks, stomach giving me alot of problems and recently, I'm starting to have this constant dizziness. Doctor came to a conclusion - STRESS. I've to admit that I can't handle stress well and I've really lousy time management. Doctor mentioned that my body will feel better if I learn to handle stress better. Plus those irregular meals, downing of coffee recently, sleeping really late at night. And yeah, so I know I'm to be blame that my health turned out this way too. I should start learning to treat my body better.
Argh. Think I shall just end my post here! Weather is so freaking hot that I've to shower again! Ciaos~
So damn true. Claimed my off-in-lieu today. Dragged my lazy ass out of my bed and went for a 5KM run earlier. I'm satisfied, happy to see the figure on the weighing machine decreasing, and instead of feeling all tired out, I feek more energetic than ever now! :) Think I'll be able to focus better when it comes to my assignment later! :)
My body hasn't been doing well recently too. Increase in amount of gastric attacks, stomach giving me alot of problems and recently, I'm starting to have this constant dizziness. Doctor came to a conclusion - STRESS. I've to admit that I can't handle stress well and I've really lousy time management. Doctor mentioned that my body will feel better if I learn to handle stress better. Plus those irregular meals, downing of coffee recently, sleeping really late at night. And yeah, so I know I'm to be blame that my health turned out this way too. I should start learning to treat my body better.
Argh. Think I shall just end my post here! Weather is so freaking hot that I've to shower again! Ciaos~
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Plans for coming Friday and Saturday: Work, Run and Swim.
I just feel it's better to lose some weight before I head over to Genting. Don't want to feel demoralise when weighing myself after this short getaway :/
Seriously going to be damn broke this month. Why so many things going on this month? I still got to pay for my school fees. Plus Great Singapore Sale is here! The worst thing is that I can never stop online shopping. Maybe it's time that I restrict myself to only a few blogshops. Oh my tian. I don't even want to think about how big the size of the hole in my pocket is going to be. Boohoo :( Sometimes, I really wonder how some people can save up so much money. Hmmm... Can somebody give me some tips on how to do so please?
I just feel it's better to lose some weight before I head over to Genting. Don't want to feel demoralise when weighing myself after this short getaway :/
Seriously going to be damn broke this month. Why so many things going on this month? I still got to pay for my school fees. Plus Great Singapore Sale is here! The worst thing is that I can never stop online shopping. Maybe it's time that I restrict myself to only a few blogshops. Oh my tian. I don't even want to think about how big the size of the hole in my pocket is going to be. Boohoo :( Sometimes, I really wonder how some people can save up so much money. Hmmm... Can somebody give me some tips on how to do so please?
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
It's the final decision. No turning back.
For those who didn't know, I was being offered a place by SIM - Facilites and Events Management. For the entire week, I've been struggling with my decision and have been asking different people for advice. Yes, I like both courses, but I couldn't possibly split myself up into two. Anyhow, I came to a final decision and chose SIM instead of SIT. After all, at least I still have got money rolling in when I'm studying part-time. Hopefully everything goes well! :)
For those who didn't know, I was being offered a place by SIM - Facilites and Events Management. For the entire week, I've been struggling with my decision and have been asking different people for advice. Yes, I like both courses, but I couldn't possibly split myself up into two. Anyhow, I came to a final decision and chose SIM instead of SIT. After all, at least I still have got money rolling in when I'm studying part-time. Hopefully everything goes well! :)
Sunday, May 29, 2011
I want to go back to Dempsey Hill - Barracks @ House for their High tea buffet! Just thinking about the desserts, especially Strawberry Shortcake, makes me drool! :D
Been spending way too much recently, especially on food. The main issue is not about spending. Eating is a form of enjoyment, it's a bliss to get to savour all the nice food. But when you realised that the figure on your weighing machine is increasing, it'll remind you to stop for awhile.
Nothing better to do, so I've roughly came up with the list of foods that I had for the month of May:
Sakura's Buffet, The Soup Spoon , Nanxiang Steamed Bun Restaurant, Suki Sushi, Taste of Thailand, Barracks @ House, Ben and Jerry's, Hotpot Culture, Tampopo, Thai Express, Solo 20 pieces of Spicy McNuggets, Countless amount of KOI and Gong Cha, not forgetting Starbucks' Green Tea Latte, and many many more..
This is seriously damn scary. I didn't expect this much! This pretty much explain why the amount in my bank has been depleting damn quickly and I haven't been losing any weight this month. All the while, I thought it was the shopping part that made me broke. Now that I know, it's time to cut down. (I kind of think this post is quite contradicting. Apologies.)
Been spending way too much recently, especially on food. The main issue is not about spending. Eating is a form of enjoyment, it's a bliss to get to savour all the nice food. But when you realised that the figure on your weighing machine is increasing, it'll remind you to stop for awhile.
Nothing better to do, so I've roughly came up with the list of foods that I had for the month of May:
Sakura's Buffet, The Soup Spoon , Nanxiang Steamed Bun Restaurant, Suki Sushi, Taste of Thailand, Barracks @ House, Ben and Jerry's, Hotpot Culture, Tampopo, Thai Express, Solo 20 pieces of Spicy McNuggets, Countless amount of KOI and Gong Cha, not forgetting Starbucks' Green Tea Latte, and many many more..
This is seriously damn scary. I didn't expect this much! This pretty much explain why the amount in my bank has been depleting damn quickly and I haven't been losing any weight this month. All the while, I thought it was the shopping part that made me broke. Now that I know, it's time to cut down. (I kind of think this post is quite contradicting. Apologies.)
