My Thoughts, My World.

Friday, November 20, 2009

i know that you've heard this for countless time, but just let me say it for the very last time.
Sorry for being ignorant for not knowing that you can't swim.
Sorry for not being able to understand or believe in you.
Sorry for always blaming and shouting at you when our boat doesn't do well for the sets.
Sorry for going overboard this time round.
Sorry that i have to say sorry over and over again.

i promise that there will be no more similar situations like that again. give me another chance and let's start it all over again. i want to do well with you for the coming IVP. and not forgetting that we agreed to completing the senior k2 marathon next year. i believe that you should know that i don't mean it when i say "i don't want to partner you anymore". it wasn't easy to find such a good partner like you. where can i find another person with similars thoughts and common goals? we have gone through so many races together, can we do it together again? yes, i believe that we can. i need you to be my driver, i need you there to motivate me.

i just want to let you know that i treasure you alot as a partner.
best best partner, please give me another chance will you?

Monday, November 9, 2009

trainings were pretty good over the weekends! now, i know we've to communicate so that we'll be able to improve. sorry partner, for always shouting and getting angry at you. i promise i'll stop all my nonsense!
and ah yang, it was really nice K2-ing with you on sunday! i cook for you the dead fish that is tagging behind our boat okay? HAHA!

it's down to two more saturdays before IVP arrives. the worst thing is that i don't feel it coming at all. it seems so far away, like two to three more months or something. but, i still hope that i'll be able to do well with partner during race day. no matter what, i'll try my very best to let the boat move faster and faster.

alot of people around me have been pms-ing recently. getting from bad to worse. no idea why :/ i think it's the influence among ourselves.

having this DAM lecture now and nobody is listening at all. everyone is glued to their own computer screen. i can't wait to complete the quiz fast and leave this boring lab earlier. boohoo.

now, I'M SUPER DUPER HUNGRY!

Friday, November 6, 2009

i'm suppose to be happy.
why am i feeling so miserable?

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

if you were to know that your parents are going through some financial difficulties, try to understand them and try to save instead of continuously getting from them money and squandering it away. Always put yourself in their shoes and learn to stop being such a burden to them. Even before you learn how to work, you start learning how to spend. how are you going to survive in the future? i believe you know who you are, reflect upon yourself.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I don't know what is going on with me recently. i'll flare up even at the slightest thing. probably it's because of those same old nonsense. to those that i've shouted at or offended, i'm really sorry.

caught Jennifer's Body on saturday and My Sister's Keeper on sunday. i still think i damn lousy or loser or whatever. the moment the dark dark part plus alot of sound effects come, i'll just cover my eyes. NC16 show and i act like that. i don't know where to hide my face already.

school was such a bore this two days. i saw my homework list and realised the one that is going to take up the most of my time is actually communication skills. due by coming friday and i haven't done any of it yet. i know i no need sleep on thursday night already.

oh my god. 8am lessons tomorrow and i'm going to be so dead. my damn habit is coming back again and it caused me to be late for lessons these few days. gosh.

Friday, October 30, 2009

have been quite busy recently and didn't really have the time to blog.

didn't went for any trainings this week since monday was mommy's birthday and wednesday was that retarded NE seminar which was a total waste of my time. instead, self-trained with sherlyna on thursday and we saw nathan, so we ended up running and gyming together.

mommy's birthday celebration was quite a simple one. just a simple meal and we surprised her with a mini cake before midnight came. she's currently taking up a temporary part-time job now cos i think she's just very bored at home. asked her not to work, she still want to work. cos if she work, we won't have homecooked food for the whole of two months! how terrible is that! now, the three of us know the importance of our mother. nevermind then, as long she is happy.

school was still all right. i felt that this specialisation isn't that bad after all. no exams leh! just got alot of projects to complete. certain modules are quite interesting. compared to last time, i've feel that i've a better understanding of programming now. but i really really can't take that DAM module. it's really damn boring and i don't even understand what the teacher is saying! so i ended up facebooking for most of the time during her lesson.

caught Michael Jackson This Is It movie with my sister just now. it's all about the rehersal/preparations for his concert before his death. with all the music and stuff, i think it's not bad.

quite sick of some stuff recently. the more i talk about it and think about, i feel tired. cos it's a total waste of my time. but it's like the moment i want to stop talking and thinking about it, then got new topics for me to talk again. i can publish a storybook already. total waste of my energy and time. but what to do?

okay, enough of these rubbish
next to come, i'm looking forward to:
-the meetup with aisyah next friday.
-ah yang's recovery from cough. so that i can go eat nice food with her and ben.
-hotpot culture with the girls on my birthday. (yes i know, still damn long! but this time no common test! so it's double happiness!)
-the china trip with my family the night when my common test ends. so i can buy alot alot of pocky from there.
-more, more and even more outings with all of my friends!

that's all i've to say for now. will blog soon IF I'VE GOT THE TIME!
bye bye!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Have you ever have a same gender friend, whom when you ask him/her out, they complain no money, yet they can keep go out with opposite gender ALOT of times. Yet in the past they dare to mention the phrase "zhong se qing you", and have they discovered what they are doing now?

Feel like knowing more things? Let me break it down for you.

Do you know how irritating/disgusted it is, when

- you thought you were close with somebody, but actually you're not?

- people thought you all are close friends, but when people see that you all don't interact with each other, people thought you're the bad guy, you are outcasting them, or you all got a fight or something? And the fact is, there isn't any fight or quarrel or wat at all.

- you tried to befriend with that someone again, hope things will be like how it used to be, but unfortunately it couldn't because that person is not willing to befriend you back again because maybe he/she thought you are distant from them, you are untrustable, and maybe very evil? When they don't even reflect on themselves?

- they seems to be like don't want to lose the friendship, but they are expecting the opposite party to take the initiative to 'repair' this friendship. Somehow, even an OUTSIDER is pitying us, trying to help us all to repair the friendship, yet the best part is, they are not doing anything? Like you owe them or something?

- although the you did initiate, but they are still giving cold shoulder?

- you thought this person is like that, but in the end it wasn't. It's bad to you, but it may be good for the others?

把热脸贴他的冷屁股。<- Have been feeling liddat for this week. This kinda feeling just sucks. It makes you look/feel like an asshole.

It's not only me, a few of us are feeling this way. We're sick and tired. Tried to improve the situation but to no avail. whatever isit, we're just not going to bother anymore.

okay, i guess It's time to stop all these rubbish already.
training tomorrow, i got to sleep(:

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

hurray! school starts at 12 tomorrow!

in the end, i didn't appeal or anything. i guess it's time i learn to be independent at times instead of relying on others yeah? i should try to take things positively. at least i will still get to see the rest of my friends once a day! like that, i will treasure them even more(: and since we're in the same specialisation, we can always help each other with studies and projects! i'm not worried anymore, i shan't complain anymore. i promise!

thank god that my cousin help took over my work today. buay tahan. i'm so tired that if somebody give me any empty place, i can just sleep anytime, anywhere. this few days, the moment i lie down on bed, i can just immediately sleep. now, it's not that i don't want to sleep. i'm forcing myself to stay awake till the food in cafe world is ready in a few minutes time!

Monday, October 19, 2009

don't ask me about school today.

it totally sucks. i might be appealing soon.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

after tomorrow, school reopens.

so sickening. two months holiday seemed like a few weeks.

and when school reopens, i've lesser time to go out since i've to cope with trainings, studies and work.

really really tired, that i can go on sleeping forever. slept a total of thirteen hours before i woke up for training today, with only an half hour break used to play cafe world. and when i reached home after training today, i had another three hours plus of nap and then woke up for steamboat. life like that is damn shiok. to me, sleeping is everything. when school reopens, i think i will die. it's either i oversleep or sleep alot during lessons.

and my calf is still damn pain!):